Crystal Ball

My broken record self has said oft in the last few days: "I wish I could look into the future and find out whether my focus on this very special SMF is warranted or not". But then I've been quick to retort back at myself: "But what exactly would you be doing differently right now if you did find out you were never meant to be together?"

I wouldn't behave much differently, I thought.

But tonight I'm earnestly considering it... So to record my conclusions of how I might behave differently if a sweet relationship wasn't destined with this fellow, here goes:

I - I wouldn't stop loving him, but I would stop reading his horoscope whenever I read mine.

II - I wouldn't stop smiling when I thought of him, but I'd try to tame amorous visualisations of him.

III - I have no idea whether I would start looking for another man to focus my attention on, but I'd like to think i'd still be as contentedly single as I am now.

IX - Maybe I wouldn't absorb with such glee his talk of things we might do together in the future, maybe I'd take it with a large grain of salt.

I'd better keep this list short before I forget the sequence of Roman Numerals!

X - I wouldn't stop communicating with him... But would I resist being physically affectionate? I'm not sure, it's rather instinctive.

XI - I'd go to bed right now and stop expending neurons and iphone battery life on him, that's for sure!

Til next time dear humans!


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