So. Not much of a day. But I'm still here. As per my pledge, I am writing another paragraph.
I got up late. Managed to do yoga at home. I regularly fantasise about having a home Ashtanga practice. Today while I was doing baby steps of the Ashtanga sequence, I thought that perhaps I have to commit to life. Despite all my disappointments and sense of failure, I have to choose to live. Even if I don't make the most of my life, achieve nothing career-wise from hereon, or never have children; I should at least try to stay alive and be healthy.
After yoga I was drawn to the bookshelf, to my flatmate's tome of Chinese/Nutritional Health: Healing With Wholefoods. Seemed fitting to look up 'Depression' in the index.
Was reminded that one's liver function is closely linked to mood and mental state. So, at the very least, I should attempt to look after my liver better, in the hope of remedying my brain difficulties. So today I didn't have a second coffee.
Yesterday while swimming I also thought about studying psychology, towards a new career as a Psychologist. It would be a long road, but maybe something that I will look at. But I'm secretly hoping my chosen career will sort itself out and become more fruitful ASAP. But my faith in such progress is dwindling day by day. And I'm questioning whether I'm even mentally fit to work.
Anyway, that's more than a paragraph. I'm signing off now. Thought about making roast chicken for dinner. Maybe I should do that.
I got up late. Managed to do yoga at home. I regularly fantasise about having a home Ashtanga practice. Today while I was doing baby steps of the Ashtanga sequence, I thought that perhaps I have to commit to life. Despite all my disappointments and sense of failure, I have to choose to live. Even if I don't make the most of my life, achieve nothing career-wise from hereon, or never have children; I should at least try to stay alive and be healthy.
After yoga I was drawn to the bookshelf, to my flatmate's tome of Chinese/Nutritional Health: Healing With Wholefoods. Seemed fitting to look up 'Depression' in the index.
Was reminded that one's liver function is closely linked to mood and mental state. So, at the very least, I should attempt to look after my liver better, in the hope of remedying my brain difficulties. So today I didn't have a second coffee.
Yesterday while swimming I also thought about studying psychology, towards a new career as a Psychologist. It would be a long road, but maybe something that I will look at. But I'm secretly hoping my chosen career will sort itself out and become more fruitful ASAP. But my faith in such progress is dwindling day by day. And I'm questioning whether I'm even mentally fit to work.
Anyway, that's more than a paragraph. I'm signing off now. Thought about making roast chicken for dinner. Maybe I should do that.
