Despite how much I bare on this blog, I'm finding it difficult to post about what I truly feel at present. I've started then abandoned several posts in the last week or so. I've been writing in my journal to try to process my thoughts without burdening my blog readers... and this afternoon I ascertained what is bothering me. I want a second chance at the relationship with TKO. Of course this may be a futile desire as it takes two willing humans to form a happy relationship, but if I'm honest, it is what I want. It's embarrassing, but it's what I want.
I miss him. I now recognise my influence in the apparent 'reactive loop' we were in. I want another chance in the relationship. I want to be open this time. But I guess he has to want that too...
I'm not blaming myself, I'm not judging myself, I just want the universe to grant us another opportunity to be together with open hearts.
I miss him. I now recognise my influence in the apparent 'reactive loop' we were in. I want another chance in the relationship. I want to be open this time. But I guess he has to want that too...
I'm not blaming myself, I'm not judging myself, I just want the universe to grant us another opportunity to be together with open hearts.
