Disbelief

I can't believe someone like me has been hurt by someone like you. How did I get led into this? I was cautious. I protected myself. I waited for signs you were serious and now this: a fucked situation where I want to vomit all the time. I don't want to be friends with you. My friends are honest and good. And although deep down I still think you are too, I still can't believe I misjudged you. My vanity and instinct still can't believe you weren't serious about me. Maybe it's my vanity that won't accept you're a bad egg. I feel violated. I feel like a fool.

I am heartbroken.