Draft letter to TKO

I think you're potentially really good for me, in so many ways. I can't work out if my confusion and upset stems from 'us' or 'me'. Would I be feeling this terrifying uncertainty with someone else right now? Why oh why can't I just be cool and go with the flow? I'm sickened by the possibility that my emotive self is destructing both our relationship and me. As Dr Russ Harris of ACT practice would say: I'm struggling against my emotion and making it worse than it needs to be.

One good thing to report is that after spending 2.5 days at Wilsons Promontory* with my phone off, I'm feeling more able to turn away from it and stick to my no phone post 10pm policy. My poor little brain needs as much peace as it can muster.

*so spectacular and so beautiful, that it is conceivable our world is a simulation, Truman Show style. Man what a relief that would be, that I'm only part of a computer game or giant artificial environment. It would be just my style to snub my nose and not do what I was supposed to do in someone else's designed world.