Imperfect Manly Trinity

I'm sort of in a love triangle. Well, not really, but I am feeling in the middle of a whole heap of man weirdness at present. Here be the three aspects:

There's the EX, who I'm still exceptional friends with and who unloaded his dilemmas to me on Friday. I've also been listening to his music over the last few days. There's TKO, who perhaps fortuitously has been out of town since Thursday. I see him tomorrow. We've had very disappointing phone conversations whilst he's been away and I'm half-expecting him to come home and dump me. And then completing the triangle is ye old SMF-BG aka The Lovely Emotional Mess. Today he basically confessed his enormous love and care for me and expressed his awful guilt at hurting me. It was certainly a relief to hear. I guess I've been emotionally unfaithful to TKO today. But it had to happen. Overdue watershed. On the morrow when SMF's hopefully in better shape I'll try to establish some boundaries and a bit of a plan with him. I can't save him or wait for him. But I always want to be there for him and I guess today was a sign we're going to be in each other's lives in some positive way from now on.

So, how to avoid crawling into my crab shell in order to process all this? If TKO still seems into me and embodying potential when we reunite tomorrow then I definitely want to give this seedling relationship a shot, regardless of all the dormant love that SMF might be ready to spill.

I can't believe I'm in a such a mellow state given all this. Calm before the storm? Hope not.