Rest in Peace

In some kind of coincidence, tonight's episode of SBS's Insight was about Australia's handling of mental illness issues; and today would've been my late cousin's 25th birthday, had she not taken her own life almost 6 years ago.

It made me cry. I couldn't have done what the brave spokespersons on Insight did tonight... I would've started crying. As much as I know mental illness isn't and shouldn't be shameful, it still doesn't seem right that diseases of basic unhappiness, perception or personality exist. The mind and the soul are not currently seperable to a lay person such as me and thus our mind defines who we are. I think this is why it's so difficult to accept and explain mental illness. Very recently I've got alot better at sharing it with friends, but it feels slightly against instinct. I'm doing it because I know I have to.

But in other pro-active and positive news, I've been using the 'Finding Optimism' software. I really think it's going to help, with personal accountability at the very least. It's also so difficult to remember accurately how you've been feeling and summarise it when necessary; I think this software will help.

Okay, I better go to bed. I haven't done the washing up but I'll live. Just like I'm living through an ambiguous and intangible rejection by the man-formerly-known-as-SMF.

Sweet dreams!

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