Hibernation

If I hadn't experienced this current flat mood and profound lack of motivation before, I'd be worried. But I'm just counting on it passing and trying not to fight it.

I'm having lots of 'what's the point?' thoughts. It's hard to drive yourself forward when you're seriously considering the mediocrity of your output.

I've also been really exhausted and this afternoon felt like basic functionality was beyond me. So I lay in bed and didn't feel guilty.

Tonight I've managed to do some necessary washing. I'm amazed. It's even possible I'll do the dishes before bed.

Last night my iPhone and I spent the night apart. We said our goodbyes at 10pm and I woke to an old-school alarm clock this morning feeling refreshed. I like domestic rules and routines, so I'm going to try to continue this habit tonight and beyond. It might even renew my romance with the stupidly clever phone.

Money is getting me down. Again. This time I'm perplexed about how I'm ever going to get out of this hand to glass of wine to mouth existence. I think the worries have also manifested out of the need to spend money on rejuvenating myself; a holiday, massage, or simply to take a week off work to recuperate... I guess I should be grateful that I can get away with a sneaky nap in the late afternoon.

Well, it's 12 minutes til my e-sundown and I'm really looking forward to being in bed. The only energetic thing I'm interested in at the moment is conversation and cuddles with my special man friend, but I don't even have the fortitude to make a phone call tonight.

Can I hope for a windfall? I'd take you all on a holiday with me!

- iBlog, therefore iAm