Restored

Spent the afternoon with my SMF and my inner calm has been restored. We visited art galleries together, as I'd always hoped. I have moments of wondering how to negotiate our uncertain relationship when I'm with him, but all in all it feels good. I can see who he is inside and I like that person. But he seems to still be orientating himself in this life and I can see why he's not ready for a relationship. So yes, pretty sure (95% so) that it's not a euphemistic rejection. But I'd love a week of unstructured time to get to know that him even more, where we can talk and talk and talk and get to the bottom of things. I think I can tame my inner nymph for the time being, but my desire for him hasn't waned. I really, really, really like his nose.