WIP

In some industries, such as mine, a WIP is a Work In Progress. It refers to a meeting, a file, or in my case, person. I am hoping I can improve radically from here on. This week I have had solid realisations that I need to improve my skills, or acquire skills I don't have. I have chosen a career that I'm now wondering whether I have the required abilities to perform. Bizarrely though it's not one of my usual plummets down a well of self-loathing. It's a conscious, logical awareness that I need to get better at various aspects of my 'craft'. I'm also aware that I'm not that creative that often. I've got a 50/50 use of my left and right brain spheres, according to an online survey that wasn't endorsed by any professional body. I need to be sillier more often, that's why I like the BG. He brings that out of me. I need to play, dabble, explore creative ideas and stop being so bloody logical and systematic. My greatest problem is focus. Concentration. I want to develop it. Enhance it. Exercise it. I blame my lack of concentration for my latest 'failure'. Even now I'm thinking of stalling this blog post to google concentration exercises.

Speaking of exercise, I've been doing some. Had some kind of logical plan to exercise every day this week. Almost got there. Thursday and today were sideswiped by knock-off beers, hunger, impromptu carb-parties, pools that closed early... Thought I would do some pilates or home exercises tonight in lieu of a swimmy-swim-swim. But I haven't yet. I've domesticated whilst watching Lost in Translation.

I restlessly scan indexes of books for insights or advice on concentration issues. I still haven't found what I'm looking for. Too many things at once. Too many mini-tasks achieved instead of steady focus on the bigger tasks that require my prolonged attention. It's giving things proper attention that makes them enjoyable and engenders inspiration and ideas and yet I'll skip around such a mental state. Is turning the computer off the answer? But it's so handy and many of the things I need live in there. Is dogged stubbornness required to stop my mind or fingers drifting to other thoughts or tasks? I'm so desperate to improve this aspect of myself that I think I will sign off now and google it. It's worth a shot. Can I stay on that task and not be tempted by the carrots of the world wide web?