A libido as high as the Empire State and an encounter with the original crush

Well, if you haven't read it in the papers already, last week I stayed out til 5am with the original crush, the one who's getting married in February. I behaved. Truly I did. I was simply gratified by getting to spend nearly 5hours virtually one-on-one with him. So much to say, so many thoughts and images rolling around in my brain. When i achieve more balance in my life next year (and believe me it's going to happen!), i will be able to simply sit and write and get all this excitement down on paper.

Someone said to me that relationships are all about timing. I would've indeed pounced like a randy cat if he wasn't betrothed. I am taking a new age approach and handing the dilemma over to the gods. Frangipanis are my god image of choice. If it's meant to be it will happen, but i feel somewhat enlivened by the fact we engaged each other in conversation for the bigger part of an evening.

I can't be that bad after all. Maybe i am in his league.