that sinking feeling

After much anticipation and nashing of teeth, all i got tonight was a brief 'see-ya'. Why was that? I was all ready to have a comfortable albeit short sensible chat. It's getting ridiculous. Do i get a new job? I can't concentrate here and my job is pretty boring anyway. I've got someone finding out about his availability status, apparently i'll find out tomorrow - but maybe my bluff's already been blown and that's why there was the brief hello/goodbye tonight. Impossible situation really - boring programs to watch (that's my job), the ongoing thought that i'll run into him and there might be conversation - how sexy! And internet merely a click away to provide further distraction. Alright. Enough now. Nothing progressed tonight, but up until that point i was still reeling from the ping pong game on Saturday. I shall be patient, leave it with the gods and get back to my job.

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