The Gods say no

Computer says no. Gods say no. My source found out he's engaged! What a suckful outcome. I've had advice from a wise friend already - she says not to shutdown and stop being interested in him - as then he will really know it's me that enquired about his availability! And after all, i do think he is genuinely nice, so perhaps a friendship could ensue, if i manage to tame my attraction and devastation - or twirl them into a devastating combination! What could possibly go wrong? Ha!

I went and caned myself in the pool. Did some laps to get it off my chest. I was convinced there was a 'vibe' going on. I don't think i am stupid.

Let me impart details of the weekend. After that enthralling game of table tennis, i went to a very emotional film:

http://homesongstories.com/

I recommend your viewing of it, but the trailer on the website doesn't really give the impression i got... the film's content was so powerful, and it's somehow incredibly sad and also heartening at the same time to know that the filmmaker went through these experiences as a child and is alive and happy as an adult today. Life eh? It isn't perfect, but then i'm a harsh critic - it's not far off perfect and bloody good on them for making it. Someone else who saw it said they were so delighted to not be ashamed by an Australian film!

Later Saturday night - i go out to farewell drinks of a good friend of mine - and uncharacteristically i stayed up til 6am! Twas a enjoyable evening with a few people i don't know very well - but they were all excellent conversationalists - so the night went on and on and back to the good friends place. One of the party of six was french - a young lady married to an older Aussie who spoke very good french. Long story - i'll finish this one later, lots of subplots to convey for full effect.

You know or get an idea that you're on a bender when you've been wearing the same undies for 3 days and realise you've lost your sunglasses.

Still haven't found the sunglasses nor run into the boy with the bad surname since i found out about his so-called unavailability. I've been prepared to run into him, and am feeling confident. If i ever do reunite with the longterm one with bad lungs, there is alot of work to do, and i feel like i've complicated it by being attracted to someone else, but then it came out of nowhere and engulfed me - and still is!

Time to do some work Ms OK.